So. My parents kind of want to emancipate me, and kind of don't. I have a drug test later so Vons can decide whether or not they want to hire me. I also need to do a bunch of community service hours. I'm still not allowed to hang with the Panda even though I'm going to on Friday. The Panda, however, wants to hook me up with one of our mutual friends. My grandma has been watching my bro and I for the last few days while my mom and step-dad gamble in Las Vegas. I'm trying to maintain good grades, but I'm really tired. My grandma thinks I need a counselor. I'm almost starting to agree, but now I can't even go to AHA because of the whole job thing. I'm feeling pretty down, and the sweater I'm wearing smells bad. We're doing radio shows and I only have one voice, which I can't find in my range. I also can't decide what song to sing for auditions. I feel kind of alone, because I don't really have anyone to hang with. Tehto and Reese are busy, Panda I'm not supposed to see, and SessGirl and the Ferret are drifting away. It's kind of sad. Meanwhile I haven't had my shower yet today, because I woke up at 7 and had to leave the house by 7:30. It's almost Christmas, but I don't know what to give my Secret Sant-ee. My emotions are crazy and keep going up and down and everyone, even the girl that sits behind me in Careers, has noticed. I don't know what to give to my family for Christmas either. I might have to steal their gifts. Ah well. I guess I'll just go feel depressed on another site.